Chapter 9



The beginning
Natural medical doctor

The Great Experiences/Ten years of uniterrupted Bliss
A Dream
Vision of the Grail
Explanation/The Trinity
My Inner Woman
To make love and be free…Tantra
The Master
The Ultimate Sutra
Amsterdam, August 1980
Silent Power
Nothing Is/The Cycle

Personal integration: twenty years of trial and error
Jealous Monologues
The Inner Adversary

Kennemerduinen 1990
Japan and Hong Kong
Tribulations/Escape from
the hell of the future
Final tribulations

(“Sermon of the Valley”)
The Descent
The Depth
The Return

Teresa of Avila
A Miracle/PilgrimCare

Looking back
Divine Wrath

Sovereign Living
The 7 Steps


Great Mother Hymn

Being Available
The Green Grass




Paradise lost
After the Song of Songs

Whither has Paradise gone, O people of the world? Whither has your innermost Treasure turned, that we may seek IT with you?

Your Divine Self has retired to the background, unrecognizable, turning the gardens with the spices and the lilies into wasteland.

I am my Self and my Self is mine; I know it from memory long ago.

You are beautiful as a Goddess, my love, comely as a Valley, terrible as an army with banners.

Turn away your Depth from me, for it disturbs me. Too long I dwelled in the grey suburbs of our mega-cities.

Your third eye is like a shining lake, but alas, it doesn't serve me anymore. It has extinguished before I started my miserable life.

I desperately search you behind your veil.

There used to be many queens and concubines, and maidens without number. They guarded the wells, sharing its abundance with everybody, without exception.

O, I know too well, I grabbed the land as if it were mine. I forgot about you. Soon the streams dried out, the earth became barren, the skies empty and the people "thrown upon themselves".  

My dove, my Perfect One, was the darling of her Mother, flawless to her that bore her. The maidens saw her and called her happy; the queens and concubines also, and they praised her.

"Who is this that looks forth like the dawn, fair as the moon, bright as the sun, terrible as an army with banners?"

I went down to my memory, and I saw the nut orchard, the blossoms of the valley,  the budding vines, the pomegranates in bloom, lamenting about the losses.

The ego has turned everything ugly.

Before I was born, everything used to be Perfect. What happened to me and the world? Will we ever laugh, dance and celebrate again? 

Return, return, O Paradise, return, return, that we may once again be part of your beauty.


And (wo)man, roaming through the wasteland, came with a shock to him(her) Self. What did I bring about? My spirit woozy, my heart cold like ice and my body under the spell of greediness.

I must have been obsessed. While everything looked so normal. We did our duty, took the children to school, visited cultural events and supported Greenpeace.

When I look into the mirror, I get scared of my own eyes.

Oh, Mother, at the time you bore me, you were so happy with your sprout. Hadn't you a delightful future in mind for me?

Was it a "law", that I first had to build up my "ego", at the expense of all and everything? To be honest: I don't know. 

What I do know is that the price is high, too high. I now stand with my back against the wall. All my options have been gambled away. Who is going to save me from my anxiety?

I was forced to Remember. Through the banks of the ever-present fog, moments of clarity appeared. Tears sprung up from my eyes. Am I thus not yet lost?

Mother hasn't forgotten me. What a miracle that She still cares about me. Her Love is inexhaustible.

When I look around myself, I notice that I am not alone. Everywhere the spark in the eyes of the people returns. The hearts are opening up, one recognizes each other once again.

All of a sudden I realize the immense task that lies before me. Back to the Source, that is the first step. To get rid of all those artificial skins. Until standing naked before the Truth.

Just like Inanna, THE great example of all mankind. What a incredible courage to descend*. Love was Her great driving force. Oh, Mother, may I likewise be filled with Love.

* In the Underworld.

I promise mySelf to never revert anymore. Once you know - conscience - there is no way back. However, it would become a Road of trial and error.

Those who have spoilt the earth should heal her again, as well.

Thus, one mustn't speak too soon. Prematureness has to be avoided. Unity is there from eternity, absolutely, it requires integration of everything excluded, suppressed and denied, though.

What you reject, dominates you.

The Mother, out of Her limitless compassion, leads you to still embracing all your inner stepchildren.

I also give back my ego to Her, yes, I put my whole life into Her Lap.  

And look, by doing this, the grass is raising, the flowers are budding, he bees are going around once again, the air is fresh like ozone and the trees are regaining their strength.

Her Light Body radiates through all life. I know I am part of it. Deeply grateful I am accepting Her gift.

Oh, I never thought, that a "second chance" had been possible. I praise the Mother without reservation. Thou, Who are the eternal Source of all life.  

May we commit ourselves to A New Heaven, A New Earth and A New Community.


* Greeting from Sumeria, 3000 BCE. It means "Freedom through the Mother"        

Sovereign Living
The Power of being yourSelf connected

A silent revolution is taking place. Th goal is total control over people and society e.g. the attempt at all costs to continue the current self-destructive system. It will not take long anymore and (wo)man is trembling with fear for an all-present and at the same time untangible Big Brother. And then I don't think yet of the climate catastrophe etc. etc. Suddenly you realize your vulnerability. The big question: is an answer possible? If yes, from where this has to come?

Dear people. I myself did find out only very recently. I would thus be the last, who blame you, that the situation hasn't become entirely clear to you. Hopefully, you will be shocked now. In particular, spiritual people should b aware of it. Isn't spirituality not about awakening, solidarity and a better world? To be exclusively concerned with your own spiritual wellbeing proofs to be too meager. If you love life, then you should feel responsible.

It took a long time, but this is the Moment we feel, that "we don't have a choice anymore". If you don't commit yourself NOW, when? We have defined our commitment into three major goals 1) To deepen e.g. to intensify the individual spiritual Way 2) Life as a connected Whole e.g. "inner is outer" e.g. "above is below" e.g. "everything is connected to everything", nothing excluded 3) The necessity of solidarity between all people.

We have worked this out in 7 Steps*. These 7 Steps are the foundation of "Healing the Planet, to begin with yourself", like we have announced it in my website. In the teachings and additional activities we stimulate everybody to put the 7 Steps into practice. While probably having the feeling in the beginning, that you have to "row against the flow", after some time you will see, that you are going to receive strength, inspiration and support from an ever growing group of people.

* Later extended into 10. See in the website.

The 7 Steps
I commit myself to the following:

1) I see the necessity of deepening e.g. intensifying my spiritual life. Actually, everything depends on having contact with the Primordial Ground of existence, the Source of insight, love and strength. That's why I have to make it a priority in daily life. I am happy with the suggestion of obliging myself to 3 periods per day of silence, prayer, contemplation and/or meditation: in the morning after waking up, at noon and in th evening before going to bed. Obviously, the content I will determine according to my own insights and priorities.

Support: collected works of Han Marie, as published in the internet, spiritual advice & guidance, home meetings, regular teaching, weekends/retreats "The Universal Way".....

2) Linked to spiritual life there is the necessity to work on my personal integration: spiritual, psychological and physical. Being fruitful in the world depends on my inner balance. Meditation and therapy belong together. For that I am very much willing to try out some methods, that can help me with that, like feeling awareness, emotional self-integration, the mother healing and the personal health plan, apart from all other  therapies, of which I have the feeling e.g. the experience, that they suit me.

Support: psychotherapy (initiation/transpersonal), home meetings, regular teaching, group consultation......

3) To begin living healthy (if you aren't doing this already) obviously, occupies an important position. Don't diseases increase head over heels? (a.o. stroke, heart arrest, brain tumors, Alzheimer, chronic disorders with children). Flow system therapy with its 200 self-help methods is a tremendous support. Also the self-help courses with Chinese guasha have proved to be especially welcome. Moreover, many of us have already done much in this regard, that's why we can exchange in all kinds of ways: child care, cooking experience, yoga etc. Our goal is A New Health Care, not only on small scale, but also big.

Support: flow system therapy acc. to Han M.Stiekema, MD, courses Chinese guashatherapy, group consultation, personal health plan, design of A New Health Care....

4) I can also agree with you, where you say, that in the current world crisis the key issue is the total transformation of self and society. Aren't the norms and values of an entire culture in an advanced state of decomposition? It is up to us to develop alternatives. The (spiritual) education of our children plays a essential role. They cry out for identity, perspective and opportunities. We are open to all traditions and times in this regard. What we need is a world view based on "feminine" values, like connectedness, tolerance, community, love, wholeness, justice and sustainability. The Legend of the Grail takes up a special place, because it symbolizes THE archetype of personal and collective renewal.

Support: collected works of Han Marie, as published in the internet, the Grail legend, initiation of "Green Men" and "Wise Women" groups, study of culture critics of all times......  

5) Our survival depends on our ability of creating a new community. That this is a serious matter is proven by the fact, that the "counter forces" actively and resolutely work on shattering the community (further), this in order to drive the people in the arms of consumerism. We thus have to fight against forces like seduction, indoctrination, advertisement, addiction, control, compulsion and manipulation. The counterbalance can only come from a vitally-alive, strong and democratically- organised community. We could make a beginning!

Support: collected works of Han Marie, as published in the internet, community democracy acc. to J.Althusius, sociocracy acc. to K. Boeke, ideas of e.g.. A.Einstein, M.Buber, E.Fromm and many others... 

6) It is clear, that the earth cannot tolerate further (unlimited) economic growth anymore. We thus have to work together for a "Economy of Enough". To realize, that "happiness" is far more fulfilling than "money" is crucial. Many initatives can be developed. Support from local, environmentally friendly small enterprises, that moreover serve the community, is important. We have to bring our saving money to "kosher" banks. Ideas like part-time jobs, basic income for everyone, subsidiarity and volunteering for the community cannot be denounced as "utopic". Solidarity with the hungry and expoited peoples of the Third World is self-evident.

Support: all help, subsidies from society, ideas like "economy of the enough" (prof.Goudszwaard/ Lange) and "Strohalm" haven't lost their actuality at all.......

7) It is our deepest longing to - according to our ability - restore the Wholeness of Life. Above mentioned steps lead "automatically" to "A New Earth". We can never do enough to develop our ecological awareness further. Indeed, everything is related to everything else, nothing excluded. It cannot be (like it happens so often) that f.i. everything is being done to eat healthy, while at the same time a wireless (DECT) telephone - an extreme harmful thing - is on the bedside table. Electro-smog - apart from toxic load in the house, industry and agriculture - is one of the greatest threat to our health. We should demand, that the harmlessness of products and applications is irrefutably proven, before they are set at us.

Support: all help, subsidies from society, a golden oldie: Earth Care, starting a climate crisis group, civic action against electro-smog etc. etc......

"Awaken!, restructure your life and serve others"

The Source of Empowerment:
The Universal Way


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