1. The teaching consists of seven
steps. First it says that "awakening is the easiest thing there is". Because of
spiritual ambition awakening is usually overlooked. The desire to reach the Ultimate
obscures the intangible quality of simply being aware. Nevertheless, awakening is the most
important step in emancipation. It is the leap from ignorance toward insight, from
imprisonment toward liberation. Everyone, without exception can awake within a split
second. Sitting in a chair, relaxed and watching the inside of your eyelids gives birth to
the witness: "I am here and my eyelids are there".To take the subtle dimension
of consciousness seriously is where it is all about.
Awakening
2. We distinguish the birth and the extension of
awareness. This includes four steps: the birth of the observer, body-environment (feeling)
awareness, awareness in action and being your Self in human contact. There is a degree in
difficulty here. The most simple is just sitting relaxed in your chair. Close your eyes
and watch the inside of your eyelids. Look at everything that comes up, as if you watch
TV. You will be surprised. The discovery is, that you are here and your problems
(thoughts, images, emotions, dreams, fantasies, and desires) are there. You are not
touched by them anymore, whereas they flow freely in your inner space. You identity has
been shifted to a new inner faculty, something you didn't know before: your inner
watching. This witness is your inner reference, center of silence, your inner stability,
and your clarity. You have found your true identity. Once you realize that, you are
awakened. Inner freedom: a piece of cake.
3. The second step consists of extending your
awareness to the body and its immediate surroundings. You may also call it contact-
awareness. In practice it means, that in all circumstances you feel your body in contact
with its environment. While walking, you feel the contact with your feet with the ground;
while sitting that of your buttocks with the chair and your back while laying down. It
comes down to a constant interaction between watching and feeling; feeling and watching,
in such a way, that there will be a conscious feedback between them. This feeling
awareness has nothing to do with a sterile watching only ("to be mindful of your
feet"), nor with on the other hand "being captured" by bodily sensations.
On the contrary. Through conscious interaction you will notice that both faculties will
benefit, without becoming entangled in each other. In order to achieve this you have to
practice a receptive "feminine" type of awareness. This is characterized by a
"movement" from the periphery to the centre: while you stay centered, the bodily
sensations are coming to you. The miracle is this: while watching and feeling, both gain
in quality. The sensations are flowing like a river into the "ocean" of
awareness, through which the latter is expanding, while the sensations (tickling, flow,
warmth, intensity etc.) are becoming more intense. The criterion is, that you have to be
able to establish a direct contact between watching and feeling, which is not always easy.
Many people think of their feet, buttocks, back etc. rather than feeling
them. It requires relaxation and - as has been said above - a receptive,
"enjoying" way of awareness.
4. Once you have mastered body-contact awareness -
you should practice it in such a way, that it will become your "first nature"
e.g. it will be impossible to sit on a chair without simultaneously feeling your behind -
then you may extend your watching and feeling toward everyday activities: washing the
dishes, watering the plants, brushing your teeth, reading the paper. Some of you will be
familiar with being "mindful while washing the dishes". It is a well-known
practice in Zen-buddhism, for instance. Usually, only the watching part is emphasized
here, while the feeling part is omitted. Very soon this will lead to exhaustion, since
"just watching" without the help of the body, can only be maintained through
will-power.As a consequence "distractive thoughts" interfere, which makes
"washing the dishes" an effort rather than an enjoyment. No, this is not how it
is meant. Spirituality is giving life a surplus value, not as a result of arduous labor,
but as a gift. In such a way, that all activities whatsoever, are becoming a source of
play and joy. So, how to do it? Simple, let your conscious body do the work for you. In
practice it means, that your activity will become the extension of your body-contact
awareness. Thus, first feeling your feet in contact with the floor, while keeping it
that way (additionally feeling your breathing, for instance) and then start doing the
dishes. Very soon "the aware body" will be taking over the activity. From that
moment on you don't do it, but IT - extended awareness, together with overflowing energy -
is washing the dishes. You would wish to do the dishes all the time...
5. However, there is still a tough part ahead of
you. It includes being able to experience a positive feedback between body-contact
awareness, while in the company of other people. Compared to plants and animals people
appear to be the rudest part of creation. This is because we commonly communicate through
the mind. Mind energy is less gentle, compared to bodily feelings. Interaction through
thinking and speech therefore very soon dominates the more subtle realm of awareness.
Thus, this is the real challenge. Don't be disappointed too soon. This really is an
advanced stage. You will only master it, if you have gone through the previous three
stages in such a way, that real progress has been made, e.g. that in every stage awareness
has been firmly established. You have to really build a foundation first, before entering
this stage. It means of course, that you will be able to extend your skills from being
aware in simple daily activities, to being together with other people. In practice, you
watch and feel your feet, buttocks, breathing uninterruptedly, while opening the door,
making coffee, and communicating, talking and exchanging with the person(s) you are with.
The criterion is this. You should be aware of a positive feedback between all the
faculties, in such a way, that each is benefitting from the encounter: your awareness
becoming more clear, your bodily energy becoming more alive and your interest in contact
with the other person more genuine, in such a way, that the other person is (visibly)
pleased by the natural (e.g. warm, positive) attention he or she is receiving from
you.
6. However, to make this start a promising one,
everything depends on the driving force behind it. How strong your longing for wholeness
is will be the determining factor. If your motivation comes from the mind, your effort
very soon will become distracted by other desires. Lucky are those ones, whose longing
directly originates from the Source. As you may well know the Ultimate is even more
longing for us, than we are for IT. Realizing this to the depth is a matter of grace, the
latter is the incomprehensible invitation to unity with our "innermost Core". If
this doesn't (yet) happen in your life, realizing your alienation may be a very
"useful tool" in generating the longing for wholeness. Painful, honest and
courageous awareness about your actual condition is of great help here. Watching and
accepting (feeling!) your suffering is where it is all about. Don't try to change, solve
or distract it. The more intense your suffering is, the stronger your longing for
Wholeness. Once there is nowhere to go anymore, then you may leap into the Other
Dimension. |